Mourning

I just had the horrific realization that I'm still getting over my breakup...that was almost a year ago. It hurts my heart to know that I'm not in his life. The thing is, logically, I know we're both far better off without one another. I miss the relationship though. I miss the closeness...dysfunctional though it was. I miss being hugged and held. And I miss laughing with him. I'm angry that he's moving on and I have no one interested in me. I want to have the relationship God wants for me...but I'm impatient. I want it now. I know that he & I weren't right for one another but I miss being in a romantic relationship.